We all wear masks from time to time. But when you are constantly hurting that mask can become your everyday face. The sad clown, hiding pain behind jokes. Lifting others up only to tear yourself down.
Coping mechanisms adapt to hide the sticky corrosive feelings that become inescapable.
Do you hide behind the mask?
Do you berate yourself for the pain?
The voices, the viscera, the dissonance….
If you don’t feel this, look around. Someone you know does
carnivale – Sometimes you need to embrace the absurd, the strange, the unknown, but be wary, occasionally “something wicked this way comes”. Carnivale is a composition inspired by the Ray Bradbury novel and just came to be. To reductively describe the music, the happy meets the weird and hooks up with some underlying evil. Don’t put to much thought into it, just enjoy!
The truth is the truth, however the perception of the truth is subjective and often misguided and ill conceived. In times of tumult the light of truth is clouded and shrouded by the oculus of those pushing agendas in the guise of information. There is no single source of truth, there is no omnipotent, infallible source of information. Only through experience, triumph and defeat, victory or learning, do we see the truth manifest. In the end we only begin to understand that what we know is but a single atom in the cosmos. This is wisdom, the ability to reform your perspective through the understanding of not what we know, but the infinite amount that we do not know. Learn, live and seek wisdom.
Alethia / Aletheia defined – The Greek word “aletheia” (ἀλήθεια) can be translated as “truth” in English. In ancient Greek philosophy, particularly in the works of philosophers like Plato and Aristotle, “aletheia” referred to the state of being unconcealed or the disclosure of something as it truly is. It conveys the idea of truth as a form of unveiling or revealing that brings clarity and understanding. “Aletheia” is often contrasted with “doxa,” which means “opinion” or “belief,” emphasizing the distinction between subjective perception and objective truth.
Replicant – In Blade Runner, the brilliant 1982 sci-fi masterpiece directed by Ridley Scott, the replicants were robots, humanoid creations who became sentient and some rebelled. Many times I feel as though I am a robot and am simply following through with my programmatic instructions.
In times like that I create. This composition is precisely one of those pieces that came from a need to insert a break in a cyclical recursion loop of monotony.
A liminal space refers to a transitional or in-between space, often characterized by ambiguity, uncertainty, and disorientation. It is a place where one has left something behind but has not yet arrived at a new destination. Liminal spaces can be physical, such as a threshold or a hallway, or psychological, such as the transition between childhood and adulthood. They can be both unsettling and transformative, as they offer an opportunity for growth and self-discovery. Liminal spaces are often depicted in literature, art, and mythology as a place of initiation or ritual, where individuals undergo a transformative journey.
The chord progressions in this track were left intentionally without embellishment to allow the listener to find their own melody, structure and path from ambiguity. As such, losing one’s self amongst the wash of sounds is an added benefit.
Entrancing and unsettling, ghost ship is journey into dark ambient horror. A cinematic terrorscape aboard an abandoned space ship. What lurks in the corridors and what has happened to the crew? Put on your favorite headphones, close your eyes and enjoy a sojourn of horror.
A dark ambient track, ex machina is perfect background music for any relaxing journey you wish to take. Reading, cooking, or just simply sitting still.
Short for Deus ex Machina, a dramatic device meaning god in the machine. The last minute save, a tragic protagonist spared from doom by a miraculous event. In reality we are the gods of our own machine and those machines are miracles unto themselves. Gift yourself time to heal, rejuvenate, refresh, or simply be still and breathe. There is solace in the dark wash of sounds in ex machina. Replenish your calm and care for your machine.
Sea of trees is a long-form dark ambient composition for relaxation, focus, meditation and sleep.
Disclaimer
This description contains tones relating to mental illness and self harm. In no way does this content condone or suggest this is a solution. There is help there is light, simply look and you will find it.
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The Aokigahara Forest, aka, The Sea of Trees or Suicide Forest, is a dense forest located at the northwest base of Mount Fuji in Japan. The forest is known for its eeriness and has a reputation as a popular suicide spot, with an estimated 100 suicides occurring annually. The forest is also associated with Japanese mythology and is said to be haunted by the yurei, or ghosts, of those who have taken their lives there. Despite its dark reputation, the forest is also a popular tourist destination for hiking and nature walks, and efforts have been made to prevent suicides and promote mental health awareness in the area.
It is inescapable that darkness will cloud our journeys. Voices, be they literal, or whispers in the storm, can sway us from the path and make our steps unsure. Even worse they can attack our very core and attempt to sway us to end our journey. Stay the course. Step sure and know that light will cross your path. Breathe, focus, meditate on your joy and blessings and be the light so that you may spread it to others.
fallout is a dark ambient journey through a dystopian soundscape. Stark, yet beautiful undertones wash the landscape in a juxtaposition of emptiness and nature’s rebirth. The topography of this journey is appropriate for sleep, meditation, focus, relaxation or escaping harsh sound environments. Best experienced through headphones, the higher quality the better.
Nox Reanimus was born from an internal calling to create music for focus, sleep, meditation, breathing and recreational escapism. All of these activities reanimate our souls and allow for the tiny rebirths we all need to thrive.
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