As keys and scales shift from major to minor there is strain.. tension.. This is so in life as well. Take time to embrace the moment, not to battle tension, but to stretch it just like a sore muscle. Just as we should listen to and treat aches and pains in our body, so should we attend to the aches and pains creating tension, anxiety and troubling thoughts and moods.
Existential ponderings often manifest a steep and slippery slope which can keep one down for quite some time. While keeping perspective in the larger picture is an important thing to cultivate, so is a firm grasp of the moment.
Stop, breathe, appreciate. Put your phone down. Stare at a cloud, stare at a bird or a deer. Exhale the minutiae and inhale the moment. Whether it be a memory, a meditation point, a mantra or just a point of light. Embrace the moment and disengage from the crush of existence. It could be a walk around the neighborhood or just sitting still at your desk. Take time to regenerate, let stale and stressful thoughts molt and rejuvenate.
Tag meditation
masquerade
Do you wear the mask?
We all wear masks from time to time. But when you are constantly hurting that mask can become your everyday face. The sad clown, hiding pain behind jokes. Lifting others up only to tear yourself down.
Coping mechanisms adapt to hide the sticky corrosive feelings that become inescapable.
Do you hide behind the mask?
Do you berate yourself for the pain?
The voices, the viscera, the dissonance….
If you don’t feel this, look around. Someone you know does
Are you OK?
This simple question can change everything.
Peel away the mask
carnivale
carnivale – Sometimes you need to embrace the absurd, the strange, the unknown, but be wary, occasionally “something wicked this way comes”. Carnivale is a composition inspired by the Ray Bradbury novel and just came to be. To reductively describe the music, the happy meets the weird and hooks up with some underlying evil. Don’t put to much thought into it, just enjoy!
alethia
The truth is the truth, however the perception of the truth is subjective and often misguided and ill conceived. In times of tumult the light of truth is clouded and shrouded by the oculus of those pushing agendas in the guise of information. There is no single source of truth, there is no omnipotent, infallible source of information. Only through experience, triumph and defeat, victory or learning, do we see the truth manifest. In the end we only begin to understand that what we know is but a single atom in the cosmos. This is wisdom, the ability to reform your perspective through the understanding of not what we know, but the infinite amount that we do not know. Learn, live and seek wisdom.
Alethia / Aletheia defined – The Greek word “aletheia” (ἀλήθεια) can be translated as “truth” in English. In ancient Greek philosophy, particularly in the works of philosophers like Plato and Aristotle, “aletheia” referred to the state of being unconcealed or the disclosure of something as it truly is. It conveys the idea of truth as a form of unveiling or revealing that brings clarity and understanding. “Aletheia” is often contrasted with “doxa,” which means “opinion” or “belief,” emphasizing the distinction between subjective perception and objective truth.
replicant
Replicant – In Blade Runner, the brilliant 1982 sci-fi masterpiece directed by Ridley Scott, the replicants were robots, humanoid creations who became sentient and some rebelled. Many times I feel as though I am a robot and am simply following through with my programmatic instructions.
In times like that I create. This composition is precisely one of those pieces that came from a need to insert a break in a cyclical recursion loop of monotony.
khaos
Even the most frenetic chaos will manifest patterns.. from patterns we derive order, and as order hardens and becomes brittle it fractures into chaos.
Khaos, also known as Chaos, is a primal Greek deity who represents the formless and shapeless void that existed before the creation of the universe. In Greek mythology, Khaos is often depicted as a vast and swirling abyss, from which the first gods and elements of the cosmos were born. Khaos is neither good nor evil, but rather a neutral force that represents the potential for creation and destruction. Khaos is often associated with the natural world and the unpredictable forces of nature, and remains a powerful symbol of the mysterious and unknowable origins of existence.
liminal
A liminal space refers to a transitional or in-between space, often characterized by ambiguity, uncertainty, and disorientation. It is a place where one has left something behind but has not yet arrived at a new destination. Liminal spaces can be physical, such as a threshold or a hallway, or psychological, such as the transition between childhood and adulthood. They can be both unsettling and transformative, as they offer an opportunity for growth and self-discovery. Liminal spaces are often depicted in literature, art, and mythology as a place of initiation or ritual, where individuals undergo a transformative journey.
The chord progressions in this track were left intentionally without embellishment to allow the listener to find their own melody, structure and path from ambiguity. As such, losing one’s self amongst the wash of sounds is an added benefit.
ex machina
A dark ambient track, ex machina is perfect background music for any relaxing journey you wish to take. Reading, cooking, or just simply sitting still.
Short for Deus ex Machina, a dramatic device meaning god in the machine. The last minute save, a tragic protagonist spared from doom by a miraculous event. In reality we are the gods of our own machine and those machines are miracles unto themselves. Gift yourself time to heal, rejuvenate, refresh, or simply be still and breathe. There is solace in the dark wash of sounds in ex machina. Replenish your calm and care for your machine.
sea of trees
Sea of trees is a long-form dark ambient composition for relaxation, focus, meditation and sleep.
Disclaimer
This description contains tones relating to mental illness and self harm. In no way does this content condone or suggest this is a solution. There is help there is light, simply look and you will find it.
In the US dial: 988
The Aokigahara Forest, aka, The Sea of Trees or Suicide Forest, is a dense forest located at the northwest base of Mount Fuji in Japan. The forest is known for its eeriness and has a reputation as a popular suicide spot, with an estimated 100 suicides occurring annually. The forest is also associated with Japanese mythology and is said to be haunted by the yurei, or ghosts, of those who have taken their lives there. Despite its dark reputation, the forest is also a popular tourist destination for hiking and nature walks, and efforts have been made to prevent suicides and promote mental health awareness in the area.
It is inescapable that darkness will cloud our journeys. Voices, be they literal, or whispers in the storm, can sway us from the path and make our steps unsure. Even worse they can attack our very core and attempt to sway us to end our journey. Stay the course. Step sure and know that light will cross your path. Breathe, focus, meditate on your joy and blessings and be the light so that you may spread it to others.
pasithea
pasithea is a serene ambient sonic landscape that evokes the tranquility and peacefulness associated with the Greek goddess of relaxation and rest. Soft dribes and gentle chimes, creating a sense of floating will accompany through the goddess’s domain. The sonic journey will guide you with the gentle ebb and flow of the goddess’s soothing energy. The overall effect is one of deep relaxation and rejuvenation, coaxing you to let go of your worries and peacefully journey to the solace of Pasithea’s realm.
let pasithea’s gentle waves wash over you and transport you to a realm of tranquility
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